March 23, 2010

• Change Happens Now

       In recent years I’ve learned a tremendous amount about the responsibilities and financial obligations of family life. When I got my first real job I was living with my parents, my bills totaled a whopping sixty dollars a month, and I was making more money than I knew what to do with. While I may not of known how to make use of it, I was good at getting rid of it quickly. I find it odd that at one point I actually wondered how my bank account could possibly be so far overdrawn given what I was making. It was then that I realized I needed to get a handle on my spending. A fire had been lit under me and the passionate determination I had lasted a week. I got my next paycheck and it was back on the town for a night of food, bowling, pool, and aimless driving for me and all of my friends. On me, of course. But when my fast paced lifestyle came into the view of the people I had been hiding it from, I became terribly ashamed. The weight of my irresponsible lifestyle came crashing down on me, and I ran. Not from the guilt, or the shame, but from the consequences. I figured if I could just put myself into a situation that required, neigh demanded responsibility and self-control, any problems I had caused for myself would eventually fix themselves out of necessity. I’ve spent the last few years running from, avoiding, delaying, procrastinating responsibility, and I have become absolutely exhausted inside and out. Well I’m tired of running. Change happens now.

  Pray for me. The decisions I make in the coming years will tremendously affect the rest of my life, and I will need the LORD’s guidance more than anything.

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